Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/25 under Uncategorized Wow where do i start, i guess you could say on the outside my life seems fine, but on the inside there are a lot of problems some big and some that are over exaggerated, but still a problem. Some of them can be solved by simply over coming a fear, others have to have much work put into them to get rid of. I always wanted to go on an adventure with my bestfriend around the world, my mind has always been elsewhere i never look directly at a person when walking my eyes seem to wander on to a person far ahead of me and i’m not even looking at the well my mind is not there, like im always in deep thought, i say i always have an adventure in my head but in reality i am alone in my head a lone adventure and it;s not even an adventure, sometimes i feel like i’m not thinking, like i may be doing an action but not thinkng about it, sometimes i fee like i’m thinking as i’m thinking like if my thoughts had a brain that brain would be the one thinking, most times i don;t even know if i’m thinking. man my mind is just gone, i have been living a double life, one life is all fun and happy and fine, the other is lonely, angry, sad, deep thinking, tired, weak, insecure kid. I like to help people other than myself y problems are kept to myself even though i beg others to help me help themm with there’s and tell me there’s whenever i tell a problem i don;t say the most urgent one i mostly say a small problem that can be fixed, but fear is just in the way, but that’s not the problem i really need help with, it’s just that my problems take a long time to communicate with people. I also have problems that i over exaggerate like for example i am not good with communicating with people on the phone, and all i have to do is get used to talking to people on the phone, but i just make it a big deal and won’t do it, because it just seems awkward to me i feel like i’m disturbing them or like i have to talk about something important to talk to them. man i don;t know why my mind just seems to be everywhere but in reality. i don;t even play video games.